Dennis & Sara
Matthew 7:18
Processing the most recent reminder of the Closed, High-Demand Group I left.
written 6 May 2023
Warning: This article is not intended for children under the age of 20 years old. This article contains mentions of childhood sexual abuse and adult sexual abuse.
I left the old group, but I still carry memories with me. New life creates new memories, and they all mix together. The past influences the . . .
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Time Machine, Episode 2
A snippet of self-encouragement from the archives
written 30 August 2017
Struggling with/against thoughts
Here's a bit I wrote to myself a few years ago. I appreciate looking back and realizing how much I did know even when I was feeling challenged. These are basic truths which still help me now, five-plus years out.
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Trust your knowledge. Be secure in what you know . . .
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Emotional Flashbacks
That very weird phenomenon of complex-PTSD
written 5 August 2021
The bewildering experience of emotional flashbacks
Pete Walker talks about a phenomenon that he says people with complex-Post Traumatic Stress Disorder experience called “emotional flashbacks.” I understand them this way: when my brain perceives danger in the present world (which it was conditioned . . .
Have you met the Inner Critic?
Good news! It's just a bunch of thoughts. They can be changed.
written Sabbath day, 24 July 2021
Currently most frustrating thought-/behavior-pattern I'm dealing with right now: the Inner Critic and one way it shows up.
Pete Walker is a licensed psychotherapist who's faced down complex-PTSD in himself and others, and written books about the experience. (I'm not endorsing his approach. It helps . . .
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Time Machine, Episode 1
A look back into my earlier days of the untangling process
written 29 May 2018
A Tentative Explanation of My Childhood
Present-day: This is from the archives. It was written back when I was just starting to explore what exactly might have happened to me, and was thinking about putting my story online. I first researched “sheltered upbringing”. A lot of the effects are similar . . .
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What's the point?
Is telling all really doing any good whatsoever?
written 31 July 2021
Why write all this stuff? What good is this doing, anyway?
I really don't know why I feel so driven to write and publish. Yes, it's for personal growth. I have already stated my purposes for this blog in previous posts, and all of those are authentic and true.
Sometimes I wonder, though – what good is . . .
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Having Self-Compassion in the Process
written 2nd day, 27 July 2021
Being good to myself
I have to have the self-compassion to realize I'm still in the middle of this thing. I'm still untangling. I've made huge leaps and bounds from where I began, but I'm still going. Still in the process.
It's so easy to get frustrated that I'm not further.
Also I've been . . .
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