Dennis & Sara
An examination of Matthew 10
Do you speak truth when you say, "Our ministers go out just like the disciples!" ?
compiled and written 6 May 2023
The leaders in the closed, high-demand group I grew up in worked in pairs and did not own homes. Their method of ministry was sometimes said to be "just like Jesus sent his disciples" in Matthew 10. Some members expressed this as a main reason they chose to join the group. There are significant differences . . .
Matthew 7:18
Processing the most recent reminder of the Closed, High-Demand Group I left.
written 6 May 2023
Warning: This article is not intended for children under the age of 20 years old. This article contains mentions of childhood sexual abuse and adult sexual abuse.
I left the old group, but I still carry memories with me. New life creates new memories, and they all mix together. The past influences the . . .
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Time Machine, Episode 2
A snippet of self-encouragement from the archives
written 30 August 2017
Struggling with/against thoughts
Here's a bit I wrote to myself a few years ago. I appreciate looking back and realizing how much I did know even when I was feeling challenged. These are basic truths which still help me now, five-plus years out.
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Trust your knowledge. Be secure in what you know . . .
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Have you met the Inner Critic?
Good news! It's just a bunch of thoughts. They can be changed.
written Sabbath day, 24 July 2021
Currently most frustrating thought-/behavior-pattern I'm dealing with right now: the Inner Critic and one way it shows up.
Pete Walker is a licensed psychotherapist who's faced down complex-PTSD in himself and others, and written books about the experience. (I'm not endorsing his approach. It helps . . .
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What's the point?
Is telling all really doing any good whatsoever?
written 31 July 2021
Why write all this stuff? What good is this doing, anyway?
I really don't know why I feel so driven to write and publish. Yes, it's for personal growth. I have already stated my purposes for this blog in previous posts, and all of those are authentic and true.
Sometimes I wonder, though – what good is . . .
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Having Self-Compassion in the Process
written 2nd day, 27 July 2021
Being good to myself
I have to have the self-compassion to realize I'm still in the middle of this thing. I'm still untangling. I've made huge leaps and bounds from where I began, but I'm still going. Still in the process.
It's so easy to get frustrated that I'm not further.
Also I've been . . .
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A Real-life Example of Groupthink
This poem shows the warped-ness of the CHDG false doctrine
written 10 July 2021
How was this poem not a huge, giant red flag?
So back when I was a teenager I had a secret “boyfriend” at school. This was a huge, shameful thing, because he wasn't a member of the group. That was a big, dangerous no-no. I was able to keep it secret for a while, dunno how long. There was very little . . .