That very weird phenomenon of complex-PTSD
written 5 August 2021
The bewildering experience of emotional flashbacks
Pete Walker talks about a phenomenon that he says people with complex-Post Traumatic Stress Disorder experience called “emotional flashbacks.” I understand them this way: when my brain perceives danger in the present world (which it was conditioned . . .
Good news! It's just a bunch of thoughts. They can be changed.
written Sabbath day, 24 July 2021
Currently most frustrating thought-/behavior-pattern I'm dealing with right now: the Inner Critic and one way it shows up.
A look back into my earlier days of the untangling process
written 29 May 2018
A Tentative Explanation of My Childhood
Present-day: This is from the archives. It was written back when I was just starting to explore what exactly might have happened to me, and was thinking about putting my story online. I first researched “sheltered upbringing”. A lot of the effects are similar . . .
Is telling all really doing any good whatsoever?
written 31 July 2021
Why write all this stuff? What good is this doing, anyway?
I really don't know why I feel so driven to write and publish. Yes, it's for personal growth. I have already stated my purposes for this blog in previous posts, and all of those are authentic and true.
Sometimes I wonder, though – what good is . . .
written 2nd day, 27 July 2021
Being good to myself
I have to have the self-compassion to realize I'm still in the middle of this thing. I'm still untangling. I've made huge leaps and bounds from where I began, but I'm still going. Still in the process.
It's so easy to get frustrated that I'm not further.
Also I've been . . .
Why? And why don't more people do it, regardless?
written Sabbath, 17 July 2021
Why is this process so disruptive? Why does it create such upheaval and stark divisions in my relationships with others?
Today I am considering my path and the unlikelihood of others taking a similar path. In other words, I don't expect people to jump on board. As part of this, I'm considering the . . .
This poem shows the warped-ness of the CHDG false doctrine
written 10 July 2021
How was this poem not a huge, giant red flag?
So back when I was a teenager I had a secret “boyfriend” at school. This was a huge, shameful thing, because he wasn't a member of the group. That was a big, dangerous no-no. I was able to keep it secret for a while, dunno how long. There was very little . . .