written 2nd day, 27 July 2021
Being good to myself
I have to have the self-compassion to realize I'm still in the middle of this thing. I'm still untangling. I've made huge leaps and bounds from where I began, but I'm still going. Still in the process.
It's so easy to get frustrated that I'm not further.
Also I've been . . .
Why? And why don't more people do it, regardless?
written Sabbath, 17 July 2021
Why is this process so disruptive? Why does it create such upheaval and stark divisions in my relationships with others?
Today I am considering my path and the unlikelihood of others taking a similar path. In other words, I don't expect people to jump on board. As part of this, I'm considering the . . .
This poem shows the warped-ness of the CHDG false doctrine
written 10 July 2021
How was this poem not a huge, giant red flag?
So back when I was a teenager I had a secret “boyfriend” at school. This was a huge, shameful thing, because he wasn't a member of the group. That was a big, dangerous no-no. I was able to keep it secret for a while, dunno how long. There was very little . . .
What does the BIBLE say?
HOW YA'LL DOIN? IT'S DENNIS HERE AGAIN. I DID WHAT I SAID, IN THAT I POSTED THE TIME THAT SARA GOT SICK AFTER LEARNING THE TRUTH OF GOD'S WORD ON SICKNESS, BUT AFTER SHE READ IT ON THE BLOG SHE WAS BOTHERED BY SOME OF THE STUFF IT SAID, AND SHE TOOK IT DOWN TO EDIT IT BEFORE RE-POSTING. YOU SEE THAT'S WHY I SAID I MIGHT HAVE A SMALL . . .
I don't always get GOD, but I love Him anyway.
written 3rd day, 22 June 2021
How does a person live through a religious Closed, High-Demand Group experience, escape from it, and decide to go back to believing in GOD again?
First, I'm reluctant to say I “went back” to anything. The way I practice faith these days is so different from what I was taught and how I was . . .
This is what it took for me to "wake up"
written Sabbath, 19 June 2021
How did I know there was a connection between my challenges and my exposure to a Closed, High Demand Group?
There wasn't really an “aha!” moment. It was kind of a hidden knowledge that I denied knowing at first. I had to gradually un-deny it and slowly get used to it in bits and pieces. Then . . .
Trying on terms, and exploring the concept misused by the group
written Sabbath, 3 July 2021
Was that really abuse? Is that just my made-up story about it? Is that just the lens I'm using to justify my hurt feelings? What is going on here?
I already posted that I find it difficult to use terms like “abuse” to describe my childhood environment. My conscious experience of . . .