Dennis & Sara

Was it abuse, or not? Part 1

I have a problem with the word "abuse."

written 10 July 2021

My husband uses the word “abuse” to describe the cause of my struggle the past few years. He has been the most up-close-and-personal witness to my recent self-exploration. Others who grew up in the same Closed, High Demand Group and later left also use that word. I understand why they would. However, I . . .

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September 05, 2021

A Necessary Apology

Apologies are few and far between around here (it's a new rule I have), but this one is heartfelt.

written Sabbath, 17 July 2021

I don't want to get too far into this without acknowledging my actions in the group.

For about 12 years, I was a consenting adult member of the CHDG I was born and raised in. For nine of those years I was a member of that group's leadership. That means I took an active part in supporting the group's . . .

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August 29, 2021

Dueling Imperatives

Two incompatible "musts" my childhood required of me

written Sabbath, 26 June 2021 

Moral versus Developmental Imperatives


  1. adjective: absolutely necessary or required; unavoidable.

  2. noun: something that demands attention or action; an unavoidable obligation or requirement; necessity. (emphasis mine)

The issue at the root of my . . .

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August 22, 2021

Group Info: Online Resources

For the inquisitive: various sources of info about the history and culture of the CHDG I left. Links to some anecdotal history included.

first compiled 31 July 2021

Links to information about the CHDG


I offer these links for those who are curious about the history and culture of the Closed, High Demand Group which was my life for 30-plus years. The verifiable, documented history of the group has been researched by many others before me. Some of that is . . .

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August 15, 2021

Taking Care of Business

Details and disclaimers

 written 31 July 2021

A few business items to get out of the way

I'm not trying to get published in any science journals. I'm not trying to win awards. Therefore, I'll do my best to include references when I use or borrow material that isn't my own, BUT! I won't guarantee the citation style rigidly adheres to any specific style . . .

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August 15, 2021


written 8 June 2021


Purpose statement

There is nothing to fear here.

Or, there is everything to fear.

Bringing hidden things out of darkness into light is not FUN. It's terrifying.

But it's worth it.

My journey of discovery and healing was born out of fear and in spite of fear. I couldn't shake a . . .

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August 13, 2021

The tales of Dennis!

Thinking happy thoughts doesn't solve anything! Only GODS truth can!

Hey ya'll, it's me again. Well it seems that we didn't even get another post out before people started unsubscribing. We both really believe that the stuff we are about to talk about will help some and will also be very interesting. So the rest of ya'll please stick around and read our interesting stories. Although I think mine will be more . . .

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August 12, 2021